PART 1 Airing out my Laundry- depressed

I feel the need to explain something before I post my next blog. It is simply this: I’m a little depressed right now. Don’t worry, I’m okay, but the truth is I am. It’s hard to admit this to myself, and even to some of my closest friends. But here I am admitting it to random people or acquaintances on myspace. Some of you know one or more of the reasons I’ve been feeling this way, and certainly many of you have wondered about my funny green profile picture.

I can look back at other periods of my life where I can see that I was probably depressed, or felt pretty alone, but this is the first time that I’ve been so keenly aware of my feelings in the moment. I don’t mean to be the rain cloud to the rest of my friends, but this is who I really am right now.

Let me say that the purpose of me admitting this isn’t at all to elicit some kind of pity, or sympathy, please don’t! My reason is because I know it’s hard for a lot of people to admit this. Truthfully, I am embarrassed to admit it myself, but now I see that as silly pride. What are we ashamed of? The fact is WE ALL go through these times where we feel sad, or lonely, and admitting it, choosing to feel the pain is the healthy thing to do. Admitting it allows other people to RELATE! So while I’m not accepting pity I will gratefully accept encouragement, prayer, advice, social invites, and money. (Okay, I’m just kidding about the money.) …but if you really want to text me and I’ll give you my mailing address.

The good news is, that I know that this is for a time. I hope its not for too long, but even through these hard and lonely days, God has carried me, comforted me, and loved me, and I know no other feeling in the world that is better than communion with God regardless of my circumstances. Hopefully through all this I’m learning to be more sensitive to other people going through the same thing. Hopefully this will help us relate to one another, and enable us to be open about depression.

Alright, now that I’ve explained that I can work on Part 2.